Well, where do I begin. I'm not even in Chicago anymore. I moved to Seattle to start new and be with Katie. I'm already regretting the latter. Where do I begin...
It first started when she started giving her number out to guys at bars. Now she's talking back and forth with this one guy. It just pisses me off. I can't seem to get over it. No matter how much I try to I just can't handle it. Things between me and her are constantly deteriorating. I can hardly stand to be in the same room as her.
In the meantime, things with Kim and I have been improving and I know she misses me. I can't see myself having a future with Katie. Let me list the pros and cons of both girls.
Katie
- Drinks a lot.
- Flirts with guys and likes the attention.
- Gives up too easily.
- Doesn't want to compromise.
- Wants to bartend and isn't serious about looking for a better job.
- Cannot stand being by herself, therefore not independant.
- Couldn't care less what I want to do.
- Everything is about her.
Those are serious things for me and the top two are pretty fucking big. I know that Kim and I can never get back together. Despite how I would love to, it just won't happen. But her personality and intelligence is what I want in a girlfriend, or at least a companion. She's smart, independant, doesn't need attention from guys, is a loner like me, likes to read, doesn't drink (though I do, but not to excess), likes Starbucks coffee, and loves cats.
I'd rather be alone and have her as a friend than be here together in misery with Katie right now. It's sad to say, but I don't think I can get over the fact of this new guy she likes. It just pisses me off too much!
My only goal now is to get this new job, get my own place, and be on my own. Katie will hook up with somebody. The idea of having my own place and being on my own is fantastic and I wish I had it right now.
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