It's over.

Well, Kim and I finally ended it Saturday. I feel like a huge cloud of despair has come over me. I can't seem to shake the fact that it's over. I was angry, so angry I punched a hole through the wall in my house. Thoughts of her cheating on me or going back to her ex boyfriend haunt me constantly. I just don't know what to think anymore? I'm so sick of all these emotions. I should have never taken this job, should have never asked her out, should have never stayed with her after all of this shit. But I did, I was clinging on to something that wasn't there. Thoughts of her overwhelm everything else. I feel weak and pathetic knowing that she doesn't think of me at all. That she is "over" me. I've got to get out of here...