I'm an idiot.

Kim isn't feeling to good today and left work early to go home sick. I told her I would buy her medicine and soup and she responds by saying, "Why?" To help you feel better, dumbass! Then she says something like she can leave the apartment if I am afraid of getting sick. Did brain cells just die in her head due to this sickness? What the hell good is saying that to me after everything we went through to get her BACK and away from him? It's coming to a point here where she needs to fucking decide what she wants to do. I already know ithe answer. She's going back to him.

It's innevitable. I'm only in denial to think otherwise. I am a complete fucking idiot to stay friends with her. I know everything is wrong here, but I must be a masochist because I just can't leave. I found an interesting post in a relationship forum that I visit often. A lot of what it says is good advice.

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,

Then you need to...... LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ...... LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth..... LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you . LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...... LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents LET IT GO!!!

If you U have a bad attitude....... LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...... LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past....LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...... LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed .........LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and but you want to 'take your hands off of it,' then you need to...... LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. It's time to do a new thing for 2008!!! LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left ...

I don't know what is in store for this weekend. But I have a sense of foreboding that it won't be good.