I do not want to have sex with you!

This girl keeps calling me up and talking to me online about wanting to come up and see me. All I want is someone to talk to. I am not physically or emotionally attracted to her in any way. She sends me pictures of her naked and it's just doesn't do anything for me. She keeps saying I'll come up and make you forget about her, but I'm thinking "eww". It just seems wrong. She has two kids already and a boyfriend, and I don't/never wanted to be the other guy. Plus, not only does it seem wrong, it just seems dirty (not in a good way).

I want Kim back, she's all I need. Sometimes I wonder if this is what her ex's felt about her. Why the fuck does she do this to guys? In the past she said she broke up with them, because they did something wrong. I didn't do anything wrong! I wasn't clingy or anything and I was willing to give her space. The whole moving in together never seemed right and I'm hoping to change that when I talk to her tonight. Sometimes I feel like crying because I miss her so much. Everyone around me gets good luck. My friend gets into a car accident and falls into money, my other friend makes more money than me, another friend gets hooked up with a good job that pays more than me.

Am I grateful for the position I am in? I was. Not anymore. I'm stuck in a horrible place in my life and I can't get out of it. If god placed me here than I pray he places me somewhere else. I want to blame somebody so I blame him. WRONG! Bad idea. Why can't he just help me? Then I see on the news that a doctor lost his entire family to burglary. His ENTIRE family. He must be crushed and wanting to die. I don't know what I'd do. If I feel this bad about losing Kim that much, if I had married her and had kids and they all were killed, I would want to die too. I would blame god for all of my suffering and wondering why he would do something like this to me.

Then I think if 9/11, then of any other tragedy where people have been lost and even other people that have broken up with their significant others because of loss in interest. These people all probably prayed their hearts out to god asking him why. Me too. These people probably had all the same idea as me. To ask god to make it better, to make all of this pain worth something. And I wonder how many of these people were changed... for the better. It's been almost a week now and I can't help but miss her and want her back. I am disregarding friend and family advice because of my overwhelming need to see her. I think to myself that I would tell my friends or family the same thing. "She's not worth it. She didn't care for you like you did her. She could give a rat's ass about you. She is seeing someone else. She lies to you about a lot of things. There are plenty of other girls out there. DO NOT talk to her anymore. Avoid her like the plague."

But I can't! I am holding onto the hope that she still has feelings for me. I need to see her, she's like a drug that I can't live without! I need her now, I want t hear her voice, to hold her in my arms, to sleep next to her, to cuddle with her, to watch tv and movies with. To do everything together with her. Please... god help me I'm begging you. Help me get over her. Do something please! I can't take this!