Sitting in Caribou.

Well, I'm sitting in Caribou coffee with Kim on the computer. I finished my homework, which I'm glad so now my weekend is free. I feel kind of sick, probably because I drank a little too much last night. I'm such a lightweight... Six beers and a Jager bomb and I was out. I guess I should expect much since I didn't eat anything before hand. I feel out of shape as well and can't wait to get back into the gym and hit it hard. I slept pretty good (thanks to the alcohol) and most of my daily concerns seemed to bleed away. They slowly started to return when I awoke [sober]. Starbucks was jumping on me at night and I awoke a couple times as well to use the bathroom, but for the most part I slept good.

Sometimes I wonder what will become of me in the next few years. Earlier I was thinking about what will happen in the next year since I have started working at The Core, but now I'm starting to wonder years down the road. More than likely, I'll be fat, broke and alone. But that's a big assumption. I'll probably be in a situation not unlike the one I am in now, complaining about my career, my relationships, the shape I'm in (physically and emotionally) and what I will be doing years from now.

Hopefully, by that time I'll have my own place at least! This job, while good, is just depressing me. I can't seem to think that there is nothing else out there for me to do that I would be good at. I would really like to act, but that's just a dream that would never happen. My online time is running out here at Caribou and I might have to re-register a new email address in order to gain access again. I used my friend's email address before. It's funny how easy it is, but with isp prices these days...

I haven't showered in a day and I feel so sticky and grimey. I should probably take a shower soon before Kim faints from my stench. I don't know how she puts up with me, but she is a good friend. Sometimes I think that I want more, like what we had, if we had it, but right now a friend is good enough. I really want to see that movie, but I don't think she wants to go. We saw Harry Potter so by god we are seeing this! :)

I'm freaking out about my tumor and I just hope everything goes ok. I'm nervous about the Chemo, but if it helps then I'll do it. I better post before my time runs up. I hope we have a good time together tonight.