I'm a loner.

At home about to go to sleep. Feeling kind of down as usual. Don't know what to do. I have to work in the morning. I'm taking Monday and Tuesday off and am just going to lay low. I like being alone. I was meant to be. I feel blah mostly all the time. I've been hanging out with friends and such, but I know they don't really give a shit. I like the movie I Am Legend. That's me, minus the loving dog. I had Starbucks, but he's gone now. So I guess you could say I lost my last true friend.

Wow, after that last sentence Kim called me to reaffirm my utter isolation.

Haha, I'm so depressing. I need to stop getting my hopes up about other things right now. The more hope you get, the more shitty it is when NOTHING happens. And nothing will. Remember that Eric.

You are on your own.

It's early morning.

Sitting at the apartment, chillin. Thinking about stuff, in no particular order, bills-Kim-health-Katie-work-career. I've been talking to Katie for a few months now. Don't know how I started developing feelings towards her. Only Matt and Alan know. I've got a gut feeling that things won't turn out good. Worked out tonight, feel good. It's late, Kim isn't here. I miss my baby-girl. Boston Celtics won tonight. It was fucking insane! I wish I saw the whole game. I saw Ray Allen's drive at the end. Fucking sweet. Well, I'm tired.

At least the thunder stopped. I get a little scared sometimes at the apartment by myself. I'm also pretty lonely right now. I'm fighting hard to stay above the water with the whole Kim situation. It's hard, but I'm fighting. Hopefully the storm will pass and I will see land. But all I can see are huge waves crashing over me and my tiny raft is all that's keeping me afloat.

Just chillin'.

Sitting here in the apartment just thinking right now. So much has happened over the past two months. I don't know where to begin. I don't want to talk much about anything. I've lost some weight which is nice. Heading closer to my goal. Kim is still with that asshole. She has come over a few times. I miss her still. The intensity of it is up and down though.

Going to a Sox game with Katie and some of her friends on Sunday. Dave might come with me, but I don't think he is. Jimmy and his girl are more than likely going to back out. Alan said he would go, but he probably will not pick up his phone Sunday. Reggie too. Wow, when stuff like this happens it really looks like I have shady friends.

Starbucks is going crazy right now. I don't think I'm going to the gym tonight. I MUST tomorrow morning though. At least for an hour and a half. Working out in the evening sucks. I like mornings better. Gets it out of the way. Starbucks is whining again. I don't know what he wants. Probably to play, but I'm not in the mood. I'm just sort of "blah" right now. I think I'll watch the rest of Pirates 3. Dead Man's Chest was so much better than At World's End.

Ok, time to go.