She went back to him again.

Well, Kim and I had a fucking huge fight last Thursday. She drove me to extremes I never thought I was capable of. No, I didn't hit her or anything, but I came pretty close. She told me to leave and I left. Now here I am again back home. But since then, she has called a couple times and finally said I could keep the apartment. Then today she is buddy punching me and calling me "Erica" her nickname for me, like nothing fucking happened. I'm a little weary of going back. To see an empty apartment and such. Knowing she'll never come back.

I've been talking to Katie lately, but I just know deep down that nothing is going to happen. I'm just humoring myself and tomorrow I probably won't even talk to her. She told me she would never date anyone else, so I think that says it all right there. Maybe I'm just looking for companionship right now. I may ask her to "hang out" sometime this week before the weekend. See where that goes. I think I'm setting myself up to fall hard again.

I went out with her and some of her friends over the weekend and it was fun. I met up with Brent too later that night. So all in all it was ok. I have so many friends that want to go out, it's good to keep them close. It will only help me forget about Kim faster. Well, I better get going and head to the gym, then back to the lonely apartment.

Something to talk about?

It's been a couple months. Nothing much has changed. I passed my EMT class and got my license, but didn't go back. I need to email my teacher and explain to him what happened. Kim and I have remained friends. So far nothing bad has happened between us. I started studying for my computer certs so I can make more money and get more experience.

I also started working out. I hit the gym hard and have been dieting and exercising almost every morning for an hour. I've already started losing some weight. I guess you could say I got a little motivation back. I think I'm becoming attracted to a girl at work. I don't want to name names right now... I might jinx it.

Brent wants me to come out to a club tonight, but I don't really feel like going. I'm just not in the mood to go out. I'll end up going and meet him there. I'm going to try and make an excuse and meet up with him afterwards. I'd like to see Iron Man. The reviews say that it's really good. Well, that's all for now.